Mommy has not let go of you! Now I have to work on letting you go, not from heart but from thinking you are around me. Mom oi having a very hard time.

mommy

I love this sweet little look you used do give me, you look so sly to me! You are so purfect to me, like you can't go anywhere.......Ever~

You were mine forever, till I had to part!

The pain of knowing you are gone from this live, is to hard for me!

love you in Heaven, till I meet you again.

love,mommy

Guess what Kevin? I'm having a baby girl!!! She is gonna wear your favorite color everyday! Well that's the goal! I bet you'd love her! I already do! So you're getting a neice! You are up there playing and having a blast I know! You are such an angel...and you are taking good care of you mommy and daddy and brother and sister! Oh and everytime it snows I think of you! It has snowed lots already this year!
Well I've gotta get some rest!

Love and miss you!

Aunt Joy, Kaleb, Riley and baby Klara Belle!

3 years ago today there was an accident that took you from us, and we have missed you since so very much. Life has not beed the same! You are still so very much loved and missed each day. This is going to be a hard week knowing that this is the week God took you from us! We all love you, and you are so very much a part of our life today, one day we will all be together soon.......when God calls our name too!

Love you more than life, Mommy-Bernadette

I am beyound missing you now! Haveing you gone for 3 years now, and keeping your memory Alive is the hardest thing I have ever done. I can loose a dog, my best friend, even my mother....but nothing hurts like this. This time of year is truly hard on us all! Then with my treatment I do pray I get well soon, could not go to Memphis yesterday, because the weather being icey

You are remembered in every way. Our neighbors, the have a beautiful from the 1920's. Mrs. Unger planted you a rose garden in memory of you, and you two have not met. I cried!

With me writing my colum in the paper I get letters how great I am doing, being truthful I am about everything. This is part of what I told you on your last day. Just wait it will all come true.

I love you and better be getting busy again, while I still have time!

Love, Mommy

I went to see Granny yesterday, she is doing good. The Dr took the pins out of her toes. We think you would have thought that was way cool. We talked about you, and she recalled you driving fast on you bike, she said it scaes her to death! We had a personal talk about the time you left us. It was hard on both of us! Granny said" I sure miss that little guy.! I'm having a hard time, maybe it's this time of year, I feel my heart is being pulled out of my chest and into be hands. Daddy went in the attic and got Floppy and the blanket I made you! At that moment I felt I was with you. I cried all over Floppy and your blanket till I fell asleep..................

Mom loves you forever, and to Pizza Hutt and back! our joke.

Mommy

Hello my love. How was your birthday in heaven?! I miss this smile you have.....

Well, a lot has been going in here in Mississippi. West Point os now 150 years old! Granny has been having operation on her feet. She just got the pins out of her toes yesterday. Oh, Max has a new home, he was the last of the 3 we were left with. God, I miss you so much. I did dream about you last night and you were singing the Grimlen song! You were so cute. I will write some more later, I am going to see the Det. about all this.

I love you with all my being!

Mommy

Kevin, Happy Halloween my sweet little boy. Me and your sister and brother made goody bags for you class again this year. I would wear my costume, but I don't think the kids will like it. I'm going to be a nurse in the operation room. I have my hair net and all, we will take pictures. So you, see I would scare the kids!

I'll give Mrs. Kimberly a hug for you.

Love, Mommy

My sweet little Kevin, You know I have not been on your site, but I have been working in your memory through Compassionate Friends, writing to the paper about loosing a child. And being there for mothers and fathers who have lost a child as well.

This 2-6-08 will be the mark od the accident,...........3 year on Feb. the 10 you will have benn gone for 3 years. So hard to believe my baby will no longer be here.

Your Birthdat is soon "Nov. 30th" don't forget.....cause we will be doing somehinng special for you! So look down that day and you will see us 4 saying Happy Birthday.

Mom has been doing well so far, but with your B-day and Holidays coming up my heart feels heavy.

You have a new coucin "Audric" he is 9 weeks old, and realy sweet. Pray for him please........his parents are trouble. Sad you might see him soon! ( Audric is doing wanderful in his new home with his foster parents)!

John and Victoria are growing up so fast, as you can see. John will be 12, Jan. 1st, and Victoria will be 10, Dac. 28th...2008! And you would be 8 this year. But mommy, only see's you as 5. When I dream of you...you are 5! You will always be 5!

With all mommy's love for now,

Mommy

I am sorry for you loss, though I'm sure you're sick of hearing that.

I wanted to let you know how strong I think you are. If I had lost my child, I wouldn't be here on earth. I can read and feel your pain, and just the fact that you are still here and still living and being a great mommy and wife to your family speaks volumes.

If all of this is a test of sorts - you're passing with flying colors, regardless what anyone has to say.

You are in my prayers, I hope that the days get easier as time goes by.

~D

Kevin, Mommy is missing you, but I also know that you would want mommy to move on and be happy again, so I'm trying my hunny bun.

I am working on a lot of things right now, thing that I am able to do. The last ect messed with my brain, I'm trying not to get upset, but I am close to it.I'm on medication to help with the problems and to keep me calm, you would laugh I know to see mommy on her cane, I thought about putting sone Be-dalings on it to make it look cool!

Kevin you lived a great life while you were here for a short time, when I am asked who my hero is I say "Kevin" you have tought me so much in the 5 years you were with me. And not one day goes by that I don't think of you! Before I do something, I think to myself, "What would Kevin say about me doing this"? Then I get my answer.

Need to go love....Mass starts soon.

Love you up above Kevin,

Love Mommy

I am in tears as I read your story about Kevin. He is such a beautiful little boy. Such a tragedy for your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you. We lost Landon on Jan. 6th, 2008, one of the hardest days in my life. As his Aunt, the pain is unbearable, I can't begin to imagine a Mother's pain. I still ask why and I know I will probably never get an absolute answer. I do know this, that Landon and Kevin are safe and happy in the loving arm of God. Landon is no longer struggling for life and neither is Kevin. My heart goes out to you for your pain. May Kevin rest in sweet sweet peace.

Kevin,

We all miss you so very much! It is hard to believe or even think that you have been in Heaven for 2 years now....... So much has happened since you got your wings, We are all two years older and you are still 5 in our hearts and minds. I know you see everything so I don't need to say everything here. I try to think of today as just another day, and not think about what day it is or how long it has been or it will just kill mommy. Mommy has come to far to let myself fall apart now.( You know what mommy's talking about )

I am keeping my promise to you...... I feel I am helping others who are going through the same loss. I have been able to help through Compassionate Friends here at our local Hospital, talking with mothers who lost their children. Letting our town know that CF is here to help us and each other by writting a letter to the paper and have it published. The money we made at the Art Fest last year went to the Children's Hospital in Birmingham. They used it to brighten the critical care floor for other children who come and have to stay a while. The floor is now painted with bright colors and cute animals in your memory!

Mommy's not done yet, I don't think I will ever be finished. I will be helping others till I take my last breathe......and I pray that time will be a long time from now.

I am going to try and keep this day happy for all of us here, I don't want to dwell on the sad moments. I know where you are and I know that you are safe in the loving arms of God, and I thank God I was chosen to be your mommy and have 5 wanderful years with you. You tought all of so much, I try real hard to live like you did. Today is when I look back and see if I have done just that in the last 2 years! And plan what I am going to do this year to make a difference.

Know that mommy loves you with all her heart, come to me in my dreams as often as you can.......I love seeing your happy little face!

Love with all my heart, Mommy...............................................

Bernadette,

I share in your pain as you are approaching Kevin's two year angelversary.  Jacob will be celebrating his one year angelversary tomorrow, February 8th.  I have cried alot this week and I hope that I can make it through tomorrow with the strength to keep a smile on my face knowing he is in a better place. 

Our boys are having the time of their lives chasing butterflies and I can see Kevin reading books to Jacob.  Jacob loved to be read to and I know Kevin is making sure that he takes care of him for me.  You should be proud of your little man. 

I cannot wait until the day that we can see our boys again.  What a glorious day that will be!!!!

"Happy 2nd Angel-versary, Kevin"

We love and miss you so much!

Bernadette,

I love you and think of you often and have special, special thoughts of you this week.  I KNOW how you feel and I get a piece of joy knowing  my Dustin in with your Kevin and they are in the most peaceful place ever.  They are so happy and we can be happier just knowing they are in heaven waiting for us to join their joy.  Dustin loved kids and always signed up to teach in children's church.  The little boys Kevin's age admired him and just hung all over him.  That is the vivion I have of Dustin and Kevin in heaven....smiles and laughter. 

Let God stay close to you.  He carries us even when we think He is not there.  I pray for God's presence in your life each day and I request you pray for me also.  I do believe in prayer.  Paryer can change everything.

Let's get together before long and spend the day doing "Kevin and Dustin" things.  Give John a hug and your other two childer a kiss for me.

Love you,

Retha

Hello love.....Mommy has been having the ECT'S, and it has been messing with my memory and who I am. I am laughing once again and daddy loves that, so do I! But I'm left with trying to remember you. That I lost a son. Every time I have an ECT done, that is more memory lost, tomorrow I have to go again to Memphis to have treatment. It has saved my life, and brought me out of the depression I was in. A lot of people were worried about me. They tell me the things I would say and do. I hear these things in disbelief......but I can't take this memory loss, it's like takeing who I am, who I thought I was. Last summer is hard for me to remember, what I like and don't like. And what sucks is that I can't get out and drive now, or one month after my last ECT!
I miss you Kevin.........that has not changed, and will never change.
I can't believe we are coming to the two year Ann. of the time we lost you. On Feb. 10th-08 will be 2 years that you have been gone. It makes me sick to think about it, it is hard to believe that you are not here with us.
Everything is new to me, I don't know how to explain the ECT's. We leave early in the mornings around 3am, and drive to Memphis TN. When I get there, they call me back and I lay on the bed, and they hook me up to an IV and get the medication ready. A lady hooks me up to heart moniters and such, and the guy above my head puts 2 pads on my head to controll the electric shock. I don't remember anything they do to me after they put my medication in the IV. I go to sleep. When I wake up I am able to move around and then I go see Tommy and we drive back home. I keep a headache for the rest of the day and I am really confused.
I miss you so much Kevin, I miss your laugh, your giggles, I miss the silly things you would do. My life is not the same with out you here! I feel like I am just going through life, just waiting to someday be with you. I am not afraid of death, what I am afraid of is never seeing you again!

Mommy loves you with all that I have, and all that I am..............

love, Mommy